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    "text": "69\nOther people had fears, needs, stories, and reasons I did not\nunderstand.\nThe system may have failed us without making any one of us the\ndevil.\nThis is the letter I should have written instead of half the book:\nDear Nora,\nI loved you before I knew how to love without turning fear into\ncontrol. The years of absence stand in the record, whatever the causes,\nwhatever the legal facts, whatever anyone told you or did not tell you.\nA father's explanation cannot return a childhood.\nYou were never responsible for my pain.\nYou were never a symbol of my conflict with the world.\nYou were a person living your own life.\nI hope it contained laughter I did not hear, teachers I never met,\nfriends whose names I did not know, ordinary mornings, mistakes\nyou survived, music you loved, and moments when you felt\ncompletely safe.\nI hope the people around you were kind.\nI hope you became yourself rather than anyone's argument.\nI do not ask you to repair me.\nI will not ask history to turn you into proof that I was right.\nI want the record to say that beneath the noise, beneath the\nanger, beneath every impossible theory, there was love - and that love\ndoes not grant authority over the person loved.\nImperfect love.\nDistant love.\nLove learning that it must be useful without becoming\nownership.\nBut love.\nYour father.\nPulse cannot deliver the letter into the past.\nNo machine can.\nThe missing center remains missing.\nIt remains a missing center, but it will not be used as a throne.\nLOVE IS NOT AUTHORITY.\nFFTAC ACTION - Reach toward one person as a person, not as a\nsymbol in your argument. Protect their privacy and allow their life to\nexceed your story about them.\n",
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