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        "title": "AntiChrist cx",
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    "text": "59\nJanuary 12th of 6004 cx I have made a lot of\nmistakes, learning points...\nHow can you hate me so much, I can't always be\nthere for you. Why do you want to hurt me? I give\nall I can for what I feel is best. I let my short meager\nlife evaporate so that you will be happy, to slave my\nlife away for nothing more then the opportunity to\nmake you happy, nothing is good enough I hope\nyou are happy. I never meant to get upset, never\nmeant to yell. I hope you are happy. The day of red\nroses, the day of lust, and pain, I enjoyed hurting\nyou. In the end, at the end of the day I have no one\nleft to blame but myself, for being to weak, for\ncaring to much, for letting you know me at all. In\nthis world of passion, fire burns in hatred and love\nbut that fire no longer burns for you at all. You do\nnot exist to me anymore, just a paper shadow\nprinted on by a story I will never tell, in a part of\nmy life that has been erased. Only for my kin do I\nweep now, that thought put aside until I am needed,\nif that day never comes I will die believing I did the\nright thing.\nOn the flip side, tranquility rains life, a river of tears\nrun dry and the earth a jagged stone.\nStock pile of munitions in the cave of destiny, is no\nmatch for the people in place in office, in the field,\nand in the seats of power within the media. No this\nis not a mutiny, or a revaluation this is blood lust,\nthis is killing for the sake of watching people die.\nThis is a tragic story that starts with a broken home\nand ends with a broken world. The family can be\nrepaired, peoples greed and hatred can be keep at\nbay. Lead with an fist! Praise the brutal dictator he\nbrings love, unity, and community. Bow down to\nthe evil empire of hate and pain for redemption,\n60\nstand clear of the war machine, let it roll by and if\nyou so choose join it's ranks. The death march, the\ndark army that will make the feeling community\nand kinship strong, as we hide within our houses\nand chant prayers to be saved from the hell and\noppression. This is the cure of Babylon, the hell of\nthe AntiChrist. The chamber of mental aguish for\nproblems that will not only be ignored but laughed\nat from on high, from the god you have chosen, the\ndeath machine of AntiChrist you savior in death\nwill truly be pain in life, and as the damned gather\nround to proclaimed our victory, you will see the\ngrinding of the death machine and you will cower in\nfear...\nThis is the word of \"Ghrisx\"\nknow that it is the will of your god, the work of\nyour savior to cleanse the earth.\nRedemption...\nJanuary 3rd of 6004\nSector 3 1-G Service for three if you would. Testing\nthe limitations of life itself, as we roll along. It is\ntime for blood shed. It is time for blood shed here. I\nbare witness to the birth of hope, my life for this,\nfor myself. Not for you, I die for me, for the\npleasure of dying, not for the life of the people. I am\nnot so humble, not so caring anymore. When I was\nyounger I was willing to give my life and soul to the\nfreedom of mankind, to change the course of\nmankind. To avoid what we all now see coming. I\nguess I still would, now I would do it more for the\nimmortality then for mankind.\nI am Atheist that once Asked \"God\" (what you call\ngod) why the world must be reborn. My\ninterpretation was, \"the lights could no longer be\n",
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