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        "title": "AntiChrist cx",
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    "text": "75\nSeptember 2003\n9/28/03 cx To fall down before the great beast and\nplead for an end. The on slot of death and\ndestruction to the bitter end. So not to awaken the\ntrue power... But you push on. The surface of the\nplanet is thin and the life on it fragile, do not care?\nWhere does your power come from? Do you\nunderstand their is only one Judge, one jury, and\nonly one executioner. No army in the world can\ncompare to the power of the Diplomat, and you\nhave no idea where it is.\n9/15/03 cx YOU WIN! Congratulations, you have\ndefeated me, destroyed my hopes and dreams,\nthrown my love onto the fire of hatred.\nCongratulations! Live well, I wish the best for you\nand yours. And may I never hear from you or of you\nagain but the blood runs pure in Eden! You will\nalways know my name, the truth, and in the end that\nis on your shoulders... My life and my love will\nsucceed me, but my hatred and bitterness will\nalways have a name, your name!\n76\nJuly 2003\n7/25/03 cx For what we once used catapults, we\nnow use intercontinental nuclear missiles. What will\ntomorrow bring?\n7/17/03 cx So came darkness over the light,\nmisunderstanding of prophecy. As it was intended\nto happen, or was it.\nIs this the question, or have I lost sight. Become to\nintertwined with my devices to be able to\nunderstand them any longer. There is always some\none better, faster, smarter... So do I give up, admit\nfailure. The rest of the world shakes as the bush\nadministration reigns terror on the free world. My\ndream of Zion, no where near completion. I am torn\nby my vices, and my skills, neither of which are\nreally the point. I am Babylon, on my knees before\nthe beast. I hate it. Can you see the daze in my\neyes... Drifting as I grow older not wiser. An\nordinary life will be the death of me. I cower before\nthe possibility of change. This is not me, this is not\nwho I am. The destiny of a star is to fade away or\nexplode. I am not a star, I am but a weak minded\nintellectual. I crave the freedom of my youth, fear\nthe pain of growing old. I always said I did not want\nto live past 27. In my teenage years I felt it was all\ndown hill after that. I wanted to change the world,\nbut I did not understand the complexity of human\ninteraction and control. My goal was to wander the\nworld and learn all I could about past cultures and\ndead religions.\nNow I wonder how I will pay my bills, stay young,\nand live threw my death. What is it about people...\n",
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