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        "title": "AntiChrist cx",
        "subtitle": "Journal of the So-Called AntiChrist",
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    "text": "103\nSeptember 2002\n09/05/02 -Last night I had a dream that my ex-wife was nice,\nher and my girlfriend were getting along great. My ex\nwouldn't talk about my daughter, but she genuinely seamed to\nwant to be friends outside in the night. There was a dead kitten\nin the attic probably died at birth, in the back of the crawl\nspace where no one ever went; so no one ever knew. She told\nme to give up rights, and to always pay, I knew then it was an\nact. I knew she never cared, she turned to my girlfriend and\nthreatened her, so I had to step in... That is the dream I had last\nnight.\n09/25/02 -What of the wind demon of the north and the sun\nsmiles of the south in the idiosyncratic diplomacy we face as\nwe deceive ourselves. This night is the night of demons\nprayers, and devils delight the night that heaven dies and weak\nsee wright. In the midst of shadows past comes a voice of\nkingdoms past and prays the night for light. This is the master\nof the old dominion in shadows past, and the key to the\nkingdom... come from past of future fight, at the mercy of my\nhand and blood to shake the reverence to the light. So seek in\nkingdoms far and abide by my law for mans divide, the\nchildren of light seen in darkness understand will of light and\nthe murderous rage instilled tonight. What have you paid or\nprayed for right when in your head, was all in sight. So mind\nyou karma, can not abide of this rage will soon decide the\nhelpless race so inside the of burdens laved and victims cries,\nfor what I ask... Without reply, you do your job, or you will...\nIn any case without reply what comes of this can not die, in\ncircles formed of burden blind, and the children of the new\nmen mind.\nFor the lost may die, but of this make justice for natures ways\nhave now touched us, and the shivering of lust within us find\nhope in lost kingdoms abroad. Why not walk into the light...\nFind purity, find right? Or is that not a mad eliption, of\nburdened pride without affliction, and that for sure I know as\nfiction. Lust not to the stars, or of their order...it is lost the\ncondemnation.\n09/28/02 -To life, of burdens spent on wasted effort... pride,\nwealth, knowledge, -> to avail the life that does nothing but\n104\ncomplicate itself... Breed wrath from the evolution of stars,\nwhy? To insure procreation, to maintain the blood line... or\nsecurity? To no avail... The Children of Palestine sleep well in\nthe knowledge that the world weeps for them, as the Tanks of\nIsrael role over them. But on the news we hear of minority\nmember who got a good job as a cook. Good for him? Or a sad\nstate of affaires that is such a big deal. What is it about a battle\nthat makes us feel alive? The life you feel when you face\ndeath, or the pride you feel when know you have overcome.\nThis is not the point or the definition of a war torn world on\nthe verge of peace, but the world goes on, as does human life.\nThis is only another chance for mankind to try again. Does it\nmatter, is there a point anymore? Can we judge all of mankind\nby our hopes and fears... Yes we can. But our judgment is only\na reflection of our own lives and the devastating fact that, life\nis hard. The complication for self judgment as the only\nrelevant judgment. I can not walk away unscaved. So I\nimplore you... Then this is only the beginning and someday\nthe beginning of the end, but for us is it not just the blink of an\neye for eternity and even eternal concepts are born and die.\nThis on the back of the news of encryption as if we didn't\nknow. But still I grow weary of this struggle... But can not\nleave or retire... this struggle is my life and beyond it there is\nnothing. <+_> What ever that means.\n",
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