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turned to drugs to try and kill the pain. She was not
too young to have children, she was just in a bad
situation. A Chicago Police office for a "fake
father". Her mother had a child by her husbands
brother, that child was Mary. Mary's mother took a
fall down some stairs after her fake father found
out, Mary's father was shot, so Mary stayed with her
"Fake father" and step mother. Mary got busted
with drugs (Heroin) and told on the people she got
them from, Mary ended up dead. The question I
have is was it the "Fake father" a Chicago Police
officer who wanted to end any risk of his "fake
daughter" getting him busted for living outside the
city (getting fired loosing retirement) or was it the
drug dealer eliminating a witness by giving her bad
drugs? She called me and said "they are fallowing
me", she was very afraid. I did not listen.
I feel responsible for her death in some ways... I did
not know about the heroin and so I told her if she
loved her ex-boyfriend be with him no matter what
anyone says. I did not know about the heroin issue
she had in the city.
If her fake dad killed her mother, his own brother,
and her it would explain why he just sits in his
living room all day after work looking out the
window. It is quite possible he did non of it, it is all
so possible that as a Chicago police office could
have confiscated some heroin and tainted it, then
injected her with it... Or not. In any case Mary had a
love of life and she was a good person, we just had
a falling out about unrelated matters. I need to go
visit her grave, my child hood friend Frank, and my
grand parents.
Franks death was the saddest Shot in the head by a
friend, I belive he was just 18. 100 years from now
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who will visit his grave? Just those that pass by and
ask WHY did he have to go so young. Why? So
when I pass the grave of a stranger, I leave it as it is.
I did not even move the flag covering a stone almost
completely underground, swallowed by the earth.
I can't do anything about what happened, all I can
do is "here and now".
So if I see a police office being kind and caring... I
appreciate that, when I see authority on a war path...
I stand up.
I do talk quite a bit about humanity as a whole, but
it is all just theory... All out of my hands. The death
of one is a tragedy the death of 6 billion is a new
beginning...
A seed that grows into a flower, a flower that leaves
seeds and new flowers grow. If that flower is seen
and liked then it is spread to all ends of the earth. If
the flower is not liked it is a weed, allowed to exist
only in the wild because elimination is to difficult.
Wild flowers... Can still be magnificent.
Journal Entry
July 6th 2004 9:13 AM CST
Sergeant of the Joliet Police department not in at
this time. I see no need to discuses this incident
with "Internal Affairs". On seen officer said his
boss ordered Zero Tolerance 4th of July... I will talk
to his boss. I do not think Sergeant Garland wanted
Paul Moeller taking sparklers away from supervised
children on 4th of July.
5:30 PM CST
Graveyard Pictures... on Pages 6-19.